9 months ago today we said one of our hardest good-byes ever…9 months ago today my heart shattered into a million pieces…9 months ago today a beautiful, gentle soul went to heaven.
It still seems surreal that Nitro is gone; sometimes it feels like he was never really here, but just a dream. I think of him every day, several times a day. I still cry when I watch his tribute video. I miss his goofiness, and his Velcro personality; I miss his beautiful, magnificent presence. I miss him following me EVERYWHERE.
Spring has finally arrived in Wisconsin, after a record-breaking snowfall 2 weeks ago. Nitro would have loved both of these things; he loved romping around in the snow, dropping his ball in front of the shovel, only to snatch it away when I went to grab it. He LOVED beautiful sunny days where he would be out in his yard for hours, barking at the neighbors, watching the birds and squirrels, basking in the warmth.
X marks the spot where I found Grizz, trying to make a break for it over the fence
This fence is 6 feet high
Spring in Wisconsin
It is a very different atmosphere here these days. Grizzly continues to bring us joy, with his wild, puppy antics. I’ve never seen a dog so full of happiness and love like he is. He is the definition of joie de vivre – exuberant enjoyment of life. As he is a little too full of life for brother Kodi, we’ve been making friends with other, younger, Westies; their playdates are full of fun and laughter.
Loves “Nitro’s” bed
Kodi playing in mud
Cutest Devil Ever
So while we mourn the loss of our magnificent Warrior, we move forward – for what else can we do? I hope Nitro is smiling down on us from Heaven, grinning from ear-to-ear as we move thru life with the Tiny Devil he sent our way. Thank you baby, and always remember: “Be good, mama loves you”
April 28th, 2018 at 12:46 am
Awwww. Bittersweet memories, but all filled with the love and tenderness that makes life with dogs worth living. It’s those seasonal events that bring back all the good times, and crazy ones too. I love that Nitro was a snow dog as much as a springtime doggie.
But wow that is some crazy snow! I’m so glad you found Grizz, that mnust have been tricky.
April 26th, 2018 at 3:38 am
More than anything, I hope our boys are fast friends!
April 26th, 2018 at 3:31 am
I’m so glad I don’t live that far north! lol
Murphy always loved laying outside no matter what the weather was! He & Nitro really would have gotten along so great! Maybe they are …
<3 Donna
April 26th, 2018 at 12:56 am
Paula,
I can’t believe it has been 9 months. It does feel like a dream. I think he is still with us a lot of the time. Then I remember and my heart breaks for you having to go through the grief journey.
I know Nitro is smiling down on you and the boys. Don’t you think he isn’t telling TD to do a few things because you know he would.
Time will move on but I know that a big part of my heart is still held by Sassy just like yours will always be held by Nitro. Doesn’t mean our hearts can hold love for others though.
I can’t believe TD tried to escape over that fence. That is a heck of a snow pile.
xoxoxo
Michelle & Angel Sassy
April 26th, 2018 at 3:37 am
Thanks Michelle…you’ve been a lifeline through this whole journey
April 25th, 2018 at 5:29 pm
Petra, what a beautiful sentiment, that “Nitro holds the piece of my heart that is broken”. Indeed he does!
April 25th, 2018 at 4:49 pm
Dear Paula
I honestly believe that Nitro is over the moon that Grizzly is full of energy and devilish adventures! Although I’m not sure where Grizzly thinks he’s going after he has conquered Mt Fence!!
Kodi, lovey, know that Nitro is surrounding you with puppy love, he has sent you an excitable creature right now, but in time you’ll be thankful he sent you such a handsome fiend!
Your words brought tears to my eyes… in feeling that Nitro’s time with you sometimes fees like a dream… I know that feeling all to well, but what a beautifully real and solid dream he was!! 9 months is not a long time my darling! Your heart may never completely mend, but know that Nitro holds that piece that is broken!
Many hugs and best wishes to you and your furmily!
Petra, Stewie and his spring loving Kittens
xxx
April 25th, 2018 at 4:28 pm
Was getting a little misty-eyed as I was reading avout our MAGNIFICENT NITRO, knowing how much your heart still hurts and how much you miss him. We miss him too.
At the same time, is presence still looms large here! His legacy of hope continues to make him a true Hero of Hope…..a true Warrior Who Won!! He still “lives” in so many ways!
And then my “sad face” burst into a hge grin as I saw the antics of Kodi and Grizz!!!! OMD!!! Sooooo cute!!
Grizz trying to escape over the fence is priceless!! What asmart boy!! He almost made it too!!
And Kodi with the happiest face ever as he enjoys his frolic in the mud! Best spa day evvvver! 🙂
Seeing Grizz as a little speck in all that snow really puts into perspective he tiny he is. Of course…..shhhhhh….don’t tell him he’s tiny!!
And the close up of cutie pants….cannot get enough of his cuteness!!! 🙂
So we continue to celebrate the amazing life of Nitro, and thank him for giving you…and us…the smile making, joy making…GRIZZ!!
Lots of love and extra hugs to you today..And always!
Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too!
April 25th, 2018 at 5:32 pm
Thanks Sally, for saying that Nitro still lives on. I do hope he continues to inspire those just starting this journey; that they come to know his inspiring story of hope.
April 25th, 2018 at 3:46 pm
You know Nitro is looking down and smiling and being happy that you are happy and finding joy again. It is all they would ever want for sure.
I cannot believe it has been 9 months already. It is like time sometimes stands still or moves quickly. It all feels like a weird dream somehow…
And still OMG with all that snow! That is truly insane. Hopefully spring will really arrive and there will be no more of that till next season.
And BTW – I still cry/tear up at Shelby’s tribute video… sometimes happy tears and sometimes sad ones … but all good ones since those were amazing memories and moments shared!
XO
Alison with Spirit Shelby in her heart (and little Jasper too)
April 25th, 2018 at 5:31 pm
Thanks Alison…we do have amazing memories of our heart dogs, don’t we?